Sometimes I wonder if I'm capable of being a good friend. To be honest, I don't think I can ever be. Never was, never will. It's not like friends don't mean anything to me. It's just that I couldn't bring myself to care more than I would. It's not like I don't need them. It's just that I can live without them.
I didn't know friendship would be so exhausting. For once I just want things to not be so annoying and complicated but I always ended up with such shitty people. Maybe they don't get me, maybe they annoy the fuck out of me or maybe it's just me. I know it's just me. I'm the problematic one. For god's sake, maybe I should just learn how to fucking have a heart for real this time.
Or maybe it's time for me to just get out of this mess and start living in my own world.
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